What if I fainted?

Throughout my times in YCM, I have always had the opportunities to do shows on air, live shoots for TVs, both for Malay shows and English ones and a bit of interviews here and there. I love making new friends, and I get pretty excited when explaining to people about YCM.

Likewise, ever since I started work, I've always loved the opportunities to brainstorm with the team about talent recruitments and future direction of the firm. Getting an opportunity to create a Programme for Gen Ys recently and allowed to tailor it how I'd love it to be. It's always an honour to be allowed to do so. However, when I got a call last week from one of the Heads, to represent the firm at an Asian event up north, I sort-of-nearly-fainted.

What to wear? 

What if I said the wrong thing about the firm? 

What if I cannot get the audience to interact back with me? 

WHAT?! 500 people?! I am so gonna faint right before the audience and get fired by Sunday. I'm not good with big crowd.

Mr CEO is doing the closing speech?! You.Are.Joking.

How did I get myself to do a presentation for the firm on the same stage that Mr CEO will be doing his as well? And we are gonna be representing the same firm. I am not gonna make it through the weekend, really. Whatever it is, make sure my presentation is before Mr CEO's. At least I won't look as silly if I were to present after his super awesome speech!

My colleague even joked, "Maybe we should do a farewell for you, you know. In case you don't make it through and not allowed to come back to office next week". Vivy on the other hand, "ONLY 500. Pffft. Kidding!". Not. Funny.

Anyway, I've managed to convince myself that this will be a good opportunity. Great opportunity like this doesn't come knocking always in fact! So, to distract myself this week and in the midst of my panic mode, I was whining to Vivy and Kim about what to wear. I wanted something summer-ish in colour (oh-so-mengade! We have summer all around in Malaysia anyway) that'll go with black pants and at the same time, looks simple. Elegant and simple, yup. Of course I found myself in the FV office making life difficult for everyone coz I was trying on a green top, then a white blazer, then an orange top which I loved but could not fit. 

Finally!

Top: Dude and The Duchess

Necklace: Accessorize

Of course nothing is complete until my shoes have the Firm's corporate colour!

Shoes: Kiss & Tell

Ok, I think I got it all covered! June is here and the Firm has definitely filled up my travelling calendar. Now that I'm all done with playing dress up, I think I have those butterflies back in my tummy. Hmmph.

Funniest conversation

Today was a rather funny day out. In between our random topics and usual corporate topics where we agreed that it's not just about "employees are a company's assets" but more importantly it's "the right (self-motivated) people, being placed in the right departments where they can maximize their contribution to the firm with the skill sets that they have that are a company's assets" was...

"why are we so attracted to each other ah?"

I looked at him. He looked at me.

"I cannot remember la"

"Huh? You asked a girl out and you cannot remember why?"

"Eh. Of course la remember. I need to check my diary."

"What?! Well I hated hanging out with you before"

"Oh my god, the H word! The truth has come out!"

"Well, I wasn't attracted to you to begin with la"

"Mmmkays. Whateverrrrr"

"So why did you like me?"

"Nice, caring, etc (inserts what a guy would usually say). But then again, I didn't know you hated me!"

"Actually kan? But we're not married yet, there's still time"

"I know right?! There's still time! Erm, ok"

*looks at each other*

"I don't anymore la now. Ish"

"Alala, we're awesome like that kan? :D"

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Suddenly he thinks we're awesome like that. We laughed so much thinking how silly we can be sometimes!

This is one amazing boy who can handle me at my best and at my worse, definitely. He can be so silly, make me laugh so hard and at the same time make me miss him even when he's beside me. He can also magically annoy me. But I like him. A lot.

How 'far' we used to sit far from each other last time. We made sure there is always a gap.

A muffin and a smile

That moment when you watch with envy, those people who have or seem to have everything, living the lavish life. It’s a nice feeling really, especially being around those very humble ones :) There’s something about me feeling happy when I see someone happy, especially so when I see people in love with their job. It sort of motivates me to work hard as well! And then I see someone struggling to save money but at the same time he works hard to make sure his family has the necessity and suddenly you feel like YOU have everything.

As I was having lunch today I observed one of the security guards that I usually see on duty going over to one of the food stalls, but all he ordered was plain water. It was lunch time but that was all he had? Water at work was something that you could get at the pantry for free, for staff. I’m not too sure what is the arrangement for security guards though, whether they have a pantry or not. It hurts to watch that happen right before my eyes, if anything, I have never had the heart to see these sort of things. Or even a family stranded by the roadside due to a breakdown. I used to ask my parents if it was ok say one day I see someone stranded by the roadside and I give them a lift. Of course in today’s world, even the nicest looking person can be dangerous, I know.

And then a question hits me, if I were to get him food, would he feel offended? In Malaysian culture, I’m sure the least they would do is to say Thank You. In LRTs, I naturally would stand up if an elderly comes in, but I was shocked when I was told to sit down back when I did the same in Paris. I guess to them, for as long as THEY don’t gesture for you to get up then that means they are capable and able to stand, hence standing up before you are told to do so is rude to them.

Oh well, you’ll never know till you give it a go I guess, so what do you do when you see the security guard picking up a chocolate muffin a few minutes later?

Pay for him!!! :):):):)

The smile on his face was definitely worth more than the money spent on him, MasyaAllah. I’m not joking when I say you can feel the warmth of his smile :)

Vitamin Water

The last thing I'd do when I'm sick is to eat them pill medicines. For the life of me, I can never swallow! Same goes for supplements, I do not take any vitamins. I used to wish that I can consume everything in a liquid form.

So, when  I was introduced to vitamin water whilst studying abroad, I was the happiest. All vitamins blended into a drink! Something that Malaysia does not have. I don't know why Coca Cola doesn't distribute them in Malaysia. Well, I used to drink it a lot until I came back home for good, and the I just forgot about them.

...not until I was sent to work or for meetings abroad. The first time I saw it in Singapore, I got so excited, I didn't even care that I was dancing around at the supermarket. I think my Boss was embarrassed, but he just pretended not to be. From then on, everytime my Singaporean counterparts or clients come up to Malaysia, they'd get me a few bottles!

But I guess when I go there myself, this is what happens. Last weekend, on a random visit to watch A Chorus Line the Musical at Marina Bay Sands, I decided to make a quick stop at Cold Storage :P