So, it's been 145 days since I have served the best local bank in south east asia! ( I'm sure you guys are smart enough to guess. Right? :P ) and I'd say, the experience that I have gotten is beyond priceless. There's no one word that can describe it, but maybe a few that may give you a picture of it. Excellent. Fantastic. Tough. More than worth it! I would never trade it for anything. I am so in love my training programme! You're on the same page as I am now?
I am currently doing my core rotation, and amazingly, I'm slowly starting to understand what the corporate world is really all about. Slowly but definitely a whole lot more knowledge that I have gained. Read : MASSIVE. I learn something new almost every day and the trust that I get at work. It's purely genuine and a motivation that just makes you want to serve them forever. Their genuine effort in teaching me and moulding me up to be like them with massive experience. Truthfully, everytime I think about it, I'm just so thankful with everything that I have been given and for being where I currently am right now. Definitely there's more than that I want to chase and achieve and push myself for, but for what I have at this point of time, it's really not something that could have come by easily. I am thankful everyday because I always believe that I have (far from but almost) everything that a girl would have wished/ could wish for at my age.
If you don't know me, I'm a person who is easily motivated, hence motivation is like food for me. But when I don't have the motivation, that's depression for me. Well, you just need to get that Glee records playing and I'd be the happiest one in the office, dancing around singing already. See how easy? or perhaps, seeing someone work so hard beside me at work, it's enough to motivate. Or even when the firm makes profit! I'd be so happy for the firm and I'd be motivated looking at the top management who has managed the firm well. Or when my colleagues are paid bonuses, that motivates me too! So much so that my friend said "This is the first time I see someone soooo happppy seeing others being paid bonus and she isn't". hahaha! true that! I get motivated when I see others' happy too =) Likewise, I'd volunteer to do community service and teach the underprivileged, and it just makes me so happy when the kids ask you to come back and teach them the weekend after. It's such a motivation to see these kids so motivated. Better still, somoeone on the road drove past me in one of those luxurious big cars, and I'm already dreaming to work my ass off to earn one. Afterwards, you can see me asking for more work in the office and completing it would just satisfy me at the end of the day. *and I'll dream that I'm one very very very little mini tiny step closer to achieving something good*
I'm easy to motivate....That's why
When I'm down, or in need of a push, I'd just do one of the followings as stated above and it almost always works immediately. I love listening to people's struggles. Not that I like to hear them suffer, but more of being ashamed that these people started from scratch. They had nothing to start off with, but they're so successful now. How did they do it?! That's why everyday I am just so thankful with what I have been given and for what I have achieved. Imagine it all being taken away.
but sometimes, you just have one of those moments, and coincidentally surroundings come to play. pressure around you seems just too much, it's overwhelming. you take into consideration what people say too deeply and you start thinking things through. thinking LIFE through. and people around you make it sound like what you've achieved is nothing. you feel so small. you don't get the support when you're at your lowest. and nothing seem to work even if you're the easiest person to motivate in this whole wide world! Sometimes, you just want to hear them say "It's ok", but you're far from it but you get one of those "I've got to be cruel to be kind" and comebacks instead. It feels that it's better keeping things to yourself and spilling it over at 'Mokeys United' where things are open and honest and constructive comments are easier to absorb. I used to be able to believe myself if I said "it will get better". But I'm not as convincing anymore nowadays. And sometimes, one thought leads to another, and another, and another two, and it goes on till I almost lose it.
Well, it's the long weekend, and I've decided to look for that motivation that has just flown away starting last week, and up till now has not made it's way back to me. I need to start reorganizing myself. My life.
p/s : I miss my SHUPHOE
